In April, I was signed off from work with my chronic illness, PoTS. I was housebound, bedbound and fed up beyond words. At the end of April, you posted about attending a Decleor event for a small number of people - I was lucky enough to be invited. It was only a two hour event but getting me there was a mission in itself. My husband took the day off work and escorted me to the door, I was terrified and nervous beyond words - I hadn't left my house in almost a month, but here I was, ready to meet you.

When it reached the third anniversary of the loss of my baby, out came the first chapter of Happy Mum, Happy Baby. I re-read every article you've ever written on miscarrying and I cried and cried, and cried. Knowing someone truly understood how I felt. It was as if you'd heard my innermost thoughts and put them onto paper. I didn't feel as alone as I had the previous year.

This year, you've tweeted me more times than I can count and I can't tell you how much one little message from you can change my day; give me motivation to keep going; to keep working at what I want to achieve. Here's why you inspire me: you use your social media platforms to spread positivity, you show the world what life's really like, struggles and all, your work ethic is something I can only dream of - writing, doing book tours, Christmasaurus rehearsals - and wasn't that just November alone? I don't know how you do it, but my logic is, if you can - I can.
I had tickets to see The Christmasaurus on 27th December but my chronic illness flared up and I was unable to come, which I still am absolutely gutted about, but Christmas Makes Me Sick will be playing in my house for the next few months. Do your talents ever end?
I wish I was brave enough to tell you all this in person because I know how lovely you'd be - maybe next time. I just want to say thank you for helping me this year. For giving me a reason to leave the house when I needed it most, for giving me comfort when I miscarried, for giving me a reason to keep pushing at what I want to achieve in life and for generally cheering me up with your positivity. The world needs more people like you. I can't wait to see what you have in store for 2018.
Love,
Zoe x
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